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How did you meet your current, or most recent, significant other?

This is going to be remarkably vague! It will suffice to say that our meeting took place in a town that is both existent and nonexistent. I'm leaving it at that, since I'm utterly embarrassed by the whole affair. The Boy seems to find the circumstances amusing, but mostly I feel that it was incredibly nerdy. There's this joke about Ari giving a best-man toast at our wedding, something to the effect of: "On that faithful day, in that little town of Prontera..." I'd kill myself... but only after thoroughly destroying the best man. I suppose it was all for the best, since we probably wouldn't have even approached eachother in any other situation. But still, how do you break that sort of thing to your parents? :\

Holy crap, insomnia much? Doesn't matter, I've been running on pure adrenaline for the past two weeks. Gotta keep it moving. My beloved cousin is leaving for the army in less than a week, and I'm finding it kind of hard to cope with. We've never lived more than 15 minutes away from eachother since birth. Long before we had siblings, we had eachother, so seeing him go is going to be hard. He appears to be following family tradition. Any time anyone in our family can't decide what they want to do with their lives, they up and join some branch of our government's armed forces. Whatever, he better come back breathing.

Man, Vox was exciting for like 2 minutes. Livejournal, please.

So, it's official:

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: 11/26/06 -- Johnson City
Justin Timberlake: 03/16/07 -- Nashville

The Timberlake concert is a surprise for Heather's birthday. I really, really, really wanted to score tickets to the Atlanta show, since it falls exactly on her birthday, but they had already been on sale for awhile, and the seats sucked. So I promptly bought some awesome seats for the Nashville show, which is a hell of a lot closer. RJA is a last-minute thing that Jess mentioned to me, and I'm really excited to see them live. I've heard they're pretty rad onstage, so we'll see. Either way, taking a road trip with Jess is going to be so much fun. <3 I have every opportunity to see Joanna Newsom at Blue Cat's, but the only person who likes her/would go with me is away at college, so that's completely blown. Gah, I wish my friends listened to better music. :p

OMFG JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE!!!111ONEONE~!$#%  /fangirl. Now, if I could nab some Deathcab and The Fray tickets, my life would be complete.

Retreating back to my beloved LJ, for the time being. I love this place, but the majority of what I have to say these days is quite private. I'll still post a few phone blogs here and there, but if you want anything of substance, you know where to go.

Forgot I Had This. Whem I Worked At Dominos, We Put That Sticker On Donnies Back Right Before He Started Delivering... This Was On Superbowl Sunday. ;)

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I have a confession to make: I'm lost. I've been in a weird head/heart space lately, and I don't really know how to elaborate all of the things that I'm experiencing right now. The things that I thought I wanted... The people that I cared about... The goals that I set for myself... They've all been questioned, tried, and some burnt up into nothingness.  I'm at this point in my life where I don't truly know what I want anymore, or I don't feel that I possess the ability to obtain the things that I do want. All the things that I thought were so sure and reliable have proven themselves otherwise. My friends and family are growing in this direction that feels so far off from where I am. I feel disconnected, like I'm trapped on the other side of the glass, looking in. I'm not depressed, or even sad for that matter... I'm just really confused. I'm hoping that the move back home will clear my head a little bit and give me some perspective. I need to be alone, and I need time to heal some old wounds. Honestly, I know that everything is going to turn out right. It takes a whole hell of a lot to break me down, and this isn't anywhere near that amount. I'm a strong girl, and I'll be alright, I just have to remember that.
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Tomorrow: Lunch, packing, phone calls, Cars with the little brother.
Wednesday: Knoxville with Heather; lunch, movie, shopping, gut-spilling.
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"Would you do it again?"
"I don't know..."
"Of course you do. If you could go back in time and make a conscious effort to do or don't, knowing what you do now... Would you do it?"
"No... I guess I wouldn't."
"Why? Didn't anything good happen? Did she make you happy at all?"
"Well, yeah, but none of that matters when you're drowning your sorrows in cheap bourbon because you're sick over the outcome."
"Good point. Want another drink?"
"Nah, I think I'll throw up and head home."

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"Sorry I'm late. I think I just rode the ass of every blind 75 year-old in the state of Arkansas, on my way here. Seriously, if they had liver spots and a seeing-eye dog, I was tailgating them."

Come Get It, Kids!

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An entertainment commentary:

Okay, so I saw the pictures from Shanna Moakler's "Divorce Party", and I must say, it's quite pathetic. I loathe people who feel the need to overcompensate for a break up, and even further, put every last detail of their private lives on parade. So, he dumped you. Yeah, that probably hurts like a motherfucker. I mean, you've got kids and history and real estate; all the requisite marital assests! But do you really want to make yourself look like a heartless whore by throwing some bullshit party just to get back at him? It's nothing more than a pity-party with strobe lights, for God's sake! I'd be pretty pissed if I saw my ex tromping around with Paris HIlton too, but not enough to make an ass of myself. At the end of the day, the most you could ever hope to walk out of a broken relationship with is your dignity. If you throw that away, you've got nothing but a whole lot of hurt and self-doubt. Let's hope Reese and Ryan don't do anything ghey like that. :\

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8 days until I move.
7 days until I start my new job.
6 days until I end my pathetic count; this would be funny in a book, one day...

Wind Ball!

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What is your favorite scent?
Submitted by Erinen. 

That's a tough one. I have a few! Scent is probably my second-favorite sense (hearing being the first), so I'm in love with pleasant smelling things. I can't narrow it down to just one, so here's my top 10:

1. My dad in the morning; toothpaste + expensive cologne.
2. Lilacs in the spring.
3. Rain on hot pavement; warm and musky.
4. Moschino's I Love Love (grapfruit, lily, lemon, and tearose). This is a beautiful perfume that reminds me very much of the good-smelling toys I had when I was a kid; very light and innocent.
5. Lancome Miracle (lychee, freesia, magnolia, and jasmine). Not heavy or overly concentrated, this perfume is exactly the way a woman should smell; fresh and warm.
6. Vera Wang's Princess (lady apple, dark chocolate, tahitian flower, and mandarin meringue). By far my favorite perfume in existence, this scent is like fruit dipped in chocolate and displayed alongside the most exotic flowers you could find; sultry, yet inviting.
7. Boy; usually a combination of laundry detergent and their own particular scent. Boy smell is so nice. <3
8. Magnolia blooms. They smell like pink lemonade and flowers.
9. Melon.
10. Fresh, country air. There's nothing in the world like it.

God, I love smelling things more than you could ever know.

P.S. Turns out that I'll be working for Helio rather than Gametap, which is fine by me, because I'm hella excited about their products and service. Plus, imagine the sweet discounts I'll get!